Grateful for second chances:
To *breathe* free-
ly for *hours* a-
lone while the *rain*
falls or the *witch*
sleeps and the
*muscles*
ease and they
*settling* like
leaves.
Know it
*long* sown, that
old *love* owned in
a *dream* breaks up-
on *laughter*
rocks to the
*moon* full
over *bowed* back
over *split* tree.
And only the yogi
of tears
weeps.
Shake the *nights* free.
Open.
Sort the pieces which *net.*
When the horses sleep,
all our love names still *fit.*
And the words which still play
by our rivers, in
beds, while we *like* to
see *birds* as they *rippling*
in *waves*
over *lawns*
over *railroad-tracks*,
pause.
Even on those sweaty afternoons--
coffee-strained, hard-backed, florescent, (late)--
escaped, beneath premature street lights,
we *may find* old friends,
shy, sweet in sharp relief,
suddenly un-lost;
guess their faces half known,
touch their lives taking shapes--
in the hollows and knots
in the loneliest bones
in the secrets and promises kept--
patterns do emerge, as hidden heated pools beneath flesh do. And made
connections. Innocence:
This husked, ripened dusk
tastes almost familiar.
---by Karen Sosnoski
NOTES:
I thought of this poem, "Grateful for second chances" as I was
recalling images from recent dreams.
Of particular meaning to me is the image of the "weeping yogi." I
had seen a small carving of a weeping yogi in a shop near my home. I had been
attracted to it and held it for a moment, trying to figure out what exactly it
was. All I knew was that it looked like a man curled up in a fetal position. I
felt somehow sorry for and fond of this little figure and contemplated buying it
but didn't.
That night I had a dream that I was sneaking into a friend's room to borrow
something while she was on vacation. To my surprise, I saw in her room thousands
of carvings of figures which I realized upon waking were the figures I'd seen in
the store. Along with these figures, she had carved thousands of letter
"As."
I was shocked and positively impressed by her diligence and moved by the time
that she, a very social person, must have spent alone to accomplish this work. I
thought to myself, "I underestimated her." I identify with aspects of
my friend's personality, so this realization that she had hidden resources of
self reliance and motivation struck me as a positive sign for me as well.
When I woke up for several days I felt a feeling of deep peace and happiness
which is unusual for me because I tend to worry easily. I went back to the shop
where I'd seen the little carving and asked the storekeeper about its meaning.
When I told her my dream, she handed me a card that read, "Weeping yogi:
hold him in your hand and he'll take away your grief." I bought one for the
friend in the dream and one for myself. I feel that the dream and the poem are
about the relief which I've discovered upon realizing that if no person or
relationship is perfect, we usually get more than one chance to express the
good, the positive energy, even the innocence that out of fear or distrust many
of us tend to keep hidden even from ourselves. -KS
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